Torn Apart

BASED ON A TRUE STORY Torn Apart is a heartrending inside look at how pornography can rip families apart and shatter the lives of everyone involved.

Off the Back Cover:

ALYSON THINKS HER LIFE is perfect. Hectic and tiring, of course, but no more so than any other wife and mother of four boys. But with her husband becoming increasingly distant, Alyson wonders if there is something she is doing wrong. Little does she know that the actions of someone she loves dearly are about to change her life forever.

Torn Apart, is my story:

I grew up knowing God, a safe and calming presence just a prayer away, anytime or anywhere. I've felt the warmth of his unconditional love envelope me in rays of bright sunlight when I’ve been struggling in darkness. I believed if I chose his ways I would be immune to certain heartaches, or difficult things. My dreams as a young girl were finding a wonderful husband, getting married and becoming a mother.

I got older, I did get married, and almost a year and a half later our first baby was born. I was certain my life was close to perfect. I had no idea my husband had begun our marriage with a secret.

It began as a teenager, and continued well into his adult life. Its black-grasping tentacles held him tightly bound until eventually it tore apart our family and changed our lives forever.

It was named—pornography.

January 1998, was the beginning of the end of my fourteen-year marriage.
When my husband finally told me the truth, it was too late. I didn't know I could feel such intense pain, and live through it. I was emotionally caught, dead center inside a raging hurricane. Some days I didn't know how I could get through the next hour, let alone the rest of the day or coming week.

As the structure of my life crumbled around me, my foundation of faith was what kept me standing, that and my four little boys. If I fell, they assuredly would too.

The pornography industry has exploded with the internet. It can be indulged in privately, inside the walls of our own homes and easily become a ferocious hunger that’s never satisfied. It stealing the innocence of our children and the younger they are, the worse the addiction can be.

Pornography is highly controversial, but no one, anywhere, can tell me pornography is harmless. No one can convince me it doesn't distort beauty, diminish self-worth, damage sacred sexual intimacy, destroy families, and demolish trust. I know, it has marked part of me indefinitely.

However, its destructive influence is not greater than God. Through Him I've found hope. Through Him I've found help. Through Him I've found healing. Through Him-so can you.